Finding yourself in a woodland scene

I know I haven't written a blog for weeks and I intend to put together a proper catch-up post soon but I just had to find time to capture our Baby Sensory experience.

Little M and I headed down to SARA Hall in Aigburth for week 2 of the 6 week course (missed the first week because of the move) and I had been thinking to myself 'can I be a**ed going all the way down there from Prescot?' (where we are camping out in my parents' house).

Got in to the chilly hall and it all looked pretty standard, mats and toys laid out on the floor like Baby Club, recognised a few mums from Pregnancy Yoga and Rhyme Time.

Thought I knew what I was getting myself into. But no. It's off its head.

Don't get me wrong, it was absolutely brilliant. All the babies loved it and Little M got really engaged in it. After the initial shock I had a real laugh and left feeling like Little M and I had enjoyed a special hour together. Mel, the tutor is amazing.

However, it did feel like I was having an out-of-body experience. I think it's because when you become a mum are expected to check all your inhibitions at the door and do things that you would never have dreamed of doing before. Like within 5 minutes of entering a room talk to a puppet in front of 15 strangers. There is also lots of group singing which is pretty alien in a baby-free world. There is something very liberating about having no shame and just having fun with your baby. There is zero requirement to be cool and just throwing yourself into the uncynical world of your baby is good for the soul.

I was going to talk about how I thought I was tripping when Mel threw on some bombastic Mozart and started creating a woodland scene but now I've gone a bit serious.

Some people have warned me against 'losing myself' now that I've had a baby and I see what they mean. I am a very different person to who I was before. However, rather than feeling like I've lost myself I feel like I've found the real me. I've been able to shed all the unimportant inhibiting baggage that I carried before and I'm enjoying seeing the world through the eyes of my little son.  And if that means I quite enjoy talking to puppets then that's all-to-the-good.

I've found a clip about baby sensory, which doesn't convey just how nuts it is (no woodland scenes) but if you know me you can imagine me doing it and have a chuckle!